Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? Psalm 139:7 NIV
I’ve been missing loved ones gone on. Friends and family passing away. Friends moving away. Other friends following their lives in different directions. Beautiful people disappearing into dementia.
I get things from dogs that I don’t get from people. I share things with dogs I can’t share with people.
I get things from people I don’t get from dogs. I share things with people dogs are unable to understand.
I get things from God that I get from neither. I share things with God I can share with no one else.
I don’t want to live past being able to have a dog—but it’s OK. My God knows who I really am, and He likes me anyway.
I don’t want to live past being able to enjoy human relationships—but it’s OK. My God is there when no one else can be. And He never misunderstands me.
I don’t want to lose humans I’ve loved and enjoyed and shared His Spirit with—but that’s OK. I’ll have them back in Heaven.
I don’t want to be lost to my loved ones while my body still lives here—but it’s OK if I have to go where my loved ones cannot follow. I can’t disappear from God’s sight.
Avi, You are Yahweh Shammah, the God who is there. You said no one can take me from Your hand. You promised never to leave me or forsake me, even to my old age and gray hairs. You’re the only One who can make those promises and fulfill them. You’re the only Guide who is everywhere and who knows every path. You’re the One who never forgets me, who never gets distracted or weary. You are my Shepherd.
And I’m Your wandering lamb. Keep me near You always, Avi.
In Your holy name, Amen.